Above is the path I take to get to a cool little restaurant on the river called The Puffin Cafe. I like to go there with Mr. Right, especially during the summer months while the skies are blue.
But yesterday, my skies were RED! I was Mom-mad. I rarely get that way. But my dad chimed in letting me know that I need to “answer the bell before I am beyond exasperated.” He let me know I need to learn to confront issues before they wear the hell out of you.
The teenagers that were over [8 of them], were not being respectful… and not all my boys were accepting the responsibility of leadership. There was a moment when we were cooking dinner for everyone that I noticed the boys were getting a little rowdy. But, instead of speaking plain and clear for all to hear… I kept doing the task at hand of preparing dinner. And as a result… when the boys were disrespecting my home, I became livid.
I did the whole “mom-mad” thing and ended with a sincere message… tears flowed in front of those teenage boys. I felt kind of sorry for all of them afterwards… Nobody wants to go through that. And although I don’t think those boys will go out of line in my place again, I want to answer that “first call” before I let people completely stomp all over my boundaries!
I don’t know why I’ve always had a little trouble taking inspired action the “first time” when that inner voice calls regarding making boundaries… it could be due to the fact I’m not the most keenly aware of identifying the clues of exasperation. I mean, it’s like I need to experience a certain level of growth and development, because I often find when that’s the case, that I hold onto discomfort too long without taking action to change my circumstances.
After the events last night, I lit a few candles, sent out a few prayers… and chilled out for a spell. I turned on my Latin Tunes… stretched on the mat… trying to acknowledge all the intense energy that was pulsing through me, then I went to bed.
Upon waking, I knew the operative word for me today is Comfort; Structure and Boundaries. Those words are all related for me. When I lack boundaries, I’m uncomfortable learning all sorts of lessons in school [of hard knocks]. Um hello: I don’t need to do this anymore. I can accept Comfort, Sturcture + Boundaries… even if I have to work on creating them.
Here’s the questions I’m asking myself today. What could I create or invite into my life in order to experience more comfort/structure/boundaries in the area of my…
- home management
- health + healing
- family relationships
So I’m at my Creative Journal and planning calendar + starting to work through my inner guidance, feelings and thoughts. I know breakthrough is coming soon. Peace.